Thursday, July 26, 2012

Doddles get in the way.

Yeah, I haven't done much drawing lately. Not really sure what I want to draw anymore and even if I want to draw. It use to bring me so much pleasure but now it seems to be more of a burden then enjoyment. I know the recent set back has a lot to do with it but I guess I am just tired of failing. It is like beating your head against a brick wall over and over. I also guess I have to high of expectations on people. I take the word "friend" and it has a lot of value to me. Others just don't seem to think that way. The one thing I have learned is that my wife is by my side. She is my biggest fan and supporter. That is the way it is suppose to be but it would be nice to have a friend that took the word and held it at the same value I did. It is late and I am rambling but isn't that what blogs are for? My ramblings. My walk with God is not close anymore. I am tired and it seems that He never really allows me to have to much success for whatever reason. I could not put my finger on it. I don't think it is becuase I don't work hard or at least I don't think it is that reason. I tend to put in a lot of hours. I don't know. It is frustrating. I know He knows what is best but dang give me a little hope. I need it. Tonight, I worked on a lot of Grimm sketches. Grimm is my first book that I ever did and out of all my characters is the one that represents me the closest. Drawing him and the gang tends to remind me why I love drawing and what heroes use to mean to me. Of course I did not really get anything done, as the title says, doddles get in the way of any real work. Nothing of real production value. Kind of sad. Hope this depression and gloom leaves soon. It isn't something I am use to having set up camp in my life.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Saturday storms

It has stormed here most the day. I love some good storms. It cleans away the bad and refreshes for the new. I finished up a piece last night and I may end up making a web comic with the character. I am not really sure yet but I like the character. Still staying away from most the inter net. I have seen or read people really going crazy about gun control now due to the senseless act in Colorado on Friday morning. I don't own a gun but I do not believe that folks should not have the right to own them. This incident doesn't change my view on this at all. The fact is that any gun control law is only going to affect those that follow the laws. Criminals will still find a way and now the innocent law abiding citizens would not be able to defend themselves. Also, the whole reason our fore fathers put this law in the books was to make sure our own government could not become tyrants over the us and the land. I do think that if our government tries to make us follow the UN gun agenda that you could possible see some riots in the street. The UN doesn't dictate American laws or rights. This goes back to the whole "world order" nonsense. Of course this is just my two cents in all of it but I can't see good ol souther boys handing over their fire arms to anyone.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

It is crazy how God works.

Well, it has been a good week or so from the horrible incident that was the Gun Ghoul kickstarter campaign. To say that I did not come away from it with a little bit of a bitter taste in my mouth would be an understatement. Tonight, God reminded me why I am on this Earth. It isn't comics or any other media but to witness and be there for others. I lost sight of that and got wrapped up in the idea of "success". The truth is that real success is leading others to Christ's gift and God's love. It isn't saling a comic book or making another dime. I always seem to forget this and get wrapped up in what the world is chasing for one reason or another but the main reason is that I am weak. I can blame this reason or that reason but the fact is that as strong as I think I am with my relationship with God; well I aint. I don't know that I ever will be. Maybe God will have to break me down over and over again until I finally dead and gone. I hope not. It would be nice to be smart enough to learn from your mistakes but that usually isn't the trend with me. I am a stubborn child. At least I know though that I have a caring Heavenly Father that loves me enough to discipline me when I need it and forgive me when I ask. Now saying all that I have decided that this blog will be the main source of my inter net updates and such. I am not going to do the facebook thing much because it is just to much negative on there and it tends to suck me into arguements that just have no value. This blog will allow me to process my thoughts, feelings, and beliefs freely without too many conflicts. I just don't want them or need them in my life right now. So, I am going to try and update this at least once or twice a week. Thanks for reading and putting up with my rambling. Be blessed and remember God loves you and He cares for you.