Wednesday, January 27, 2010

A time of re evaluations

Time for an update. Things were a little crazy last week. I also caught some type of bug since last Friday and I am just now getting over it. Still have a lot of congestion in my chest and throat. Can't really talk that well. UGH.

Anyway, I think it is a time for me to re evaluate my life. I noticed a trend in the last six or seven months and it isn't a good one. I have fallen back into some old patterns that just aren't suitable. If I want to move forward I really have to let go of the past and that includes, people and situations that bring the worse out in me. I firmly believe you have to cut the negative out of your life. You only live a short time and if people or situations are not helping you grow and bringing bad emotions out of you, then it is time for a change. I am not the type of person who wants things "to be like they use to be" or sit around thinking about how much better things were years ago. To be honest, I never really cared for the past. Sure there were good times but there were more bad then good. I am happy with the life God has given me now. Sure, I could have more money, more success and more friends but at what cost? I am very lucky to have a wife that loves me as much as my wife does. The friends I do have are loyal and would pretty much die for me. They don't stab me in the back or look for an angle to manipulate. That is what the people from my past use to and still do. I don't really hold any ill will towards these guys but God helped me escape that situation and establish myself as an individual and I don't want to lose that and I sure don't want to continue to try and please people that could careless about my happiness or don't feel the same loyalty to me as I do to them.

I don't have much to give in this life. I am not rich, I am not famous and I don't have a lot of worldly treasures but the one thing I do have is a strong loyal friendship. It is something that I should treasure and not give away so easily. If anything I should learn not to be so quick to be open to people.

So this brings up the title, time to re evaluate my life and relationships. What are my goals? Who are my friends? Who is going to be there to bring the best out in me? Where do I see myself in a year? Who do I surround myself with and are they there to help or hinder me? What does God truly want from me?

I hope you stick around and see if I can come up with these answers. I would love to read your input on it. Hope you surround yourself with friends and folks that uplift you and don't bring you down.